Saturday, August 30, 2014

My Project 52 {34-35} -

Week 34 - Historic St. Charles, Missouri - Tuesday, August 19, 2014 

Week 35 - Meeting Henry, a joy filled and glorious evening - Sunday, August 24, 2014

We have been on a late summer vacation as a family the last 12 days! From FL to Alabama, and Missouri!
It was wonderful seeing so many old friends, but it is great to be back and making new plans & starting school! 

With love always,
~ Jean Marie ~ 

Thursday, August 14, 2014

My Project 52 {33} -

Week 33 - Shot on my GoPro. Playalinda Beach, FL - August 14, 2014 - In the sea.

I love the sea so much. Becs went with me this morning, and it was gorgeous and cold and radiant.
Mom, Dad and I went to Joyce's memorial service this afternoon, and I knew I needed a blast of
peace before a blast of sadness. There are few things better for me than swimming and dipping and
 swirling in the sea. It does unexplainable things in uplifting my spirit. It is a gift to live here.

Looking at this picture moves me incredibly much. It is an unconscious gesture of peace for me. 
My hand up, receiving, giving, trusting, letting go. When I looked this just a few minutes ago,
I knew it was my Project 52 pic for the week (or maybe month), so I thought I'd share it a few days early. 

And then two more things to share that very much fit the sea: 

A favorite song: "First Impressions - Instrumental" by Edgar Meyer & Mark O'Connor 
on the CD "Impressions" by Yo-Yo Ma -- I listen to this song over and over. Love it so much.

And a favorite quote: 
"For whatever we lose (like a you or a me), it's always ourselves we find in the sea."
 ~ E.E. Cummings ~ 

With love always, knowing that the grace that sustains me is also sustaining many of you.
Resting in the arms of Everlasting Love of Jesus - 
~ Jean Marie ~ 

Sunday, August 10, 2014

My Project 52 {32} -

Week 32

Today was Leah Lynn's Baby Shower, and it was such a wonderful time to get together and talk with all the girls that have become mamas and wives and laugh about life together and eat delicious food and ooh and ahh about 100 baby things. We are SO excited for the arrival of Gabe & Leah's baby girl.

Georgia and I played a little peek-a-boo on the window seat at the Morse's home. I peeked around the curtains with my camera as she shrieked with joy. What a lovey she is. I can't believe she will be 2 next month, and her little sister will arrive the next month after that!! Life goes by so fast.

With love always,
~ Jean Marie ~ 

Saturday, August 2, 2014

My Project 52 {30-31} -

Week 30 - Cherie Downs Beach, Cape Canaveral, FL - July 24, 2014 - Shot on my GoPro

Week 31 - Food Truck BBQ/Real Mac 'n Cheese & coleslaw. Monday, July 28, 2014. Taken with my iPod Touch.

My life right now summarizes into:
 eat as much good food as possible, 
be with as many of my friends as possible while we all have summer break, 
(or text or talk with them if they are out of state),
go to the beach as much as possible, 
hold as many adorable babies as possible,
 enjoy really good music (which means I have music playing all the time),
listen to Relevant podcasts and laugh as much as possible,
 watch all the TV series I've been behind on, and cry as much as needed,
 spend time outdoors as much as possible without dying from the heat, 
and let go of as much stress and sadness and pain as I possibly can. 

It's been a great week, and I'm hoping this next week follows that pattern. 

With love always,
~ Jean Marie ~

Friday, August 1, 2014

Five Minute Friday: Begin -

From Lisa-Jo Baker, the Gypsy Mama"On Fridays around these parts we like to write. Not for comments or traffic or anyone else's agenda. But for fun, for practice, for joy at the sound of syllables, sentences and paragraphs all strung together by the voice of the speaker. 
We love to just write without worrying if it's just right or not. For five minutes flat."

Today's prompt: Begin

~ Go ~

iPod Touch picture: July 8, 2014

It occurred to me yesterday that I am scared to go back.

In words that demand to be spoken and yet. YET. I cannot even begin to speak of.

I am going on a trip in a few weeks and I'll see people that I haven't seen for years. And it occurred to me yesterday that I'm terrified. I'm terrified that I loved too much and somehow it was all my fault. I know it is purely not true, my shaking head tells me even my brain knows it.

But my heart feels it.
And it makes me terrified and panicked to go back and be where once it all seemed to be a beginning.
And where it once felt like dreams had begun were now dashed farther than I would know or could ever fathom.

It makes me miss people who were alive then. It makes me hurt to know of how sad I really am.

It makes me take off my glasses and wipe the tears running down my face away.

Because as much as I love to remember the beginning, the ending is what I weep over. 

This life has hurt more than I ever ever ever imagined it would. I've lost far too many people.
The new beginnings have stung and ached and made me scream in pain and shatter pottery.
The new beginnings made me stand in the quiet of the cemeteries and hold it together just one.more.time.

There comes a time when the endings and beginnings run together and it is all a sobbing, whizzing blur.

I've always hated endings. I've always hated change. But I've always loved weddings.
And true love. And babies so soft and cuddly you could hold them forever. I've always loved giving love.

And that is why I'm traveling in a few weeks. Because in the ending and in the beginning.
In the joy and in the sorrow. In the pain and in the laughter. In the dark and in the light.
In the deep and in the high. In the mountain and in the valley. In the knowing and in the sharing -

God has been faithful. He holds the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds and knows their grief.
And He has written for us all our beginning and endings {Psalm 139}. The beautiful and the sad.

And He will be enough for all the new beginnings until the true Beginning of Forever.

"God would sooner cease to be, than cease to be faithful." ~ C.H. Spurgeon 

~ Stop ~ 

With love always,
~ Jean Marie ~

P.S. Lisa Jo - this safe place to write has opened up my heart in more ways than I knew possible.
 I've cried many times, and been surprised over and over again of how 5 minutes comes together in a story.
Thank you for inspiring this in all of us. I've been blessed. Much love and thank you always.